For almost a month, I've been tracking down the Valar for any news of her logging in. But to no avail. The Valar has many ways to avoid me. we haven't talked since. But, no, even if i go to Valarion and eavesdrop, she will still ignore me. Not even my skill to become a blade in the crowd will save me when that time is needed.

I guess, the best plan of action now is to wait the opening of classes, for the long run, i think. But for now, until she destroy IT, I'm going to observe what will happen next. But for short term plan, I'll call ARWEN for some information about the Valar.

For once, I felt the burden to not cling to a cliff when she's in front of me. It's too hard to sacrifice a month without logging in even once. But if it's penance for what i did this past month, then so be it.

If you are reading this, my Valar, please, log in at the start of May. I cannot sacrifice another month without logging in. It'll drive me so mad, i think i'm gonna be sick.

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