I don't think it's a stargazing which happened last night, for me, it's just another spiritual retreat or another day at school. Only, we get to sleep inside the school.

Well, I didn't attend our batch because mom is sick. And dad suggested that I shouldn't attend. Well, I'm a bit happy about the fact. Because I get to go home.
But I attended the last batch. Which was Modesty and Temperance. I was the only student there that actually belonged to another section.
So i arrived at home sweating to fix my things. (i just ran from school to my home.)
And then, I packed them up and rode my bike back to school. When i arrived, i noticed that i forgot my money so that i can register. =.= . So i called back home and the caretaker answered. I asked for P25 and advised her that she come to school riding a pedicab. after 15 mins. of waiting, she arrived. And then I hid my things to search on our science teachers. I know that all the faculty members had their general meeting. But I wanted to know more.

But then again, Rosa en Bouton arrived. I was mad at myself why I haven't apologized to what i did to her yesterday morning. I was so mad about the fact, it ruled my mind for an hour. Even fear can't overwhelm it. So i said to myself, "better stand back and watch them self destruct."

During the stargazing, i experienced many major chest pains. I showed signs to those who's in charge of my health, but they won't recognize it. So i endured the pain. No one even care for me there. They're treating me like an outcast. And an outcast i am. (except for the teachers)

But at the end of the event, it became much easier. Joy came by to school to fetch Rosa en Bouton,Ana Mae and some of her friends. I on the other hand, was asked to stay for awhile. I agreed forcefully. And then we took pics. I was forced to do some poses myself, but i made a deal with Joy. She, will ride on my bike. (and my bike's very tall, thank you.)After that, she rode it again, this time, Rosa en Bouton and Ana Mae were filming us. They said they were gonna put it on YouTube. I didn't agreed at first, but i have to accept the fact that they are paparazis. Even though they are my friends, so i agreed. After that I went home.

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